Healed!Overcoming her 16 year battle with a painful, itchy, facial rash and terrible headaches

Romans 10-17A woman suffering from a rash and blinding headaches discovers there is only one cure.

by Marilyn Ludolf

I woke up with the same tormenting headache I had gone to bed with, and struggled to the bathroom. I grasped the sink with both hands and reluctantly raised my pounding head to the mirror.

The face reflected in the glass was a fiery red mask of tiny bumps and large acnelike sores. Hundreds of them. The horrible rash covered my face like the Egyptian plague of boils in the Bible. The unending headache and rash comprised the mysterious condition I had lived with for 12 long, unbearable years.

Here I was, a middle-aged woman with two teenage sons and a husband, and I could hardly bear to raise my head and look in the mirror.

Tears blurred my vision as I tried to remember the smooth, milk-white complexion I used to have. My fingers twitched, longing to claw at the fiercely itching skin on my face.

I had tried everything—special diets, oatmeal soap, baby oil, vitamins and enough creams and ointments to fill a small drugstore. And the long line of doctors I had seen had passed by like a dwindling parade of hope. The rash had only grown worse, and my face swelled, itched and turned tomato-red at the slightest stimulus.

Suddenly the pain behind my eyes tightened as if someone were packing cotton into my sinuses. I reached for a bottle of pain medication and quickly swallowed a couple of pills. I took the maximum of eight pills a day. But they only forestalled the worst of it—when the pain crept down my neck, making clear thinking nearly impossible.

I felt consumed by despair, by the long years of this strange affliction. I had prayed so many times for it to go away. “Oh, God, why don’t you help me?”

I dabbed at my eyes and dressed for work. My head ached so much I could hardly pull a comb through my hair. I thought about crawling back into bed. But, of course, I couldn’t. I liked my work as a third grade schoolteacher. I had to keep going.

As I entered school that morning a little girl peered up at me, her eyes wide with surprise and dismay. “How come your face looks like that?” she asked.

I raised my hands over my cheeks and tried to explain. But I fell silent. I had no answer.

Not long after, someone told me about a dermatologist. I had seen half a dozen specialists already, but I made an appointment, ready to grasp at anything. I sat slumped on his examining table after a long series of allergy tests.

“Well, maybe we have an answer,” the doctor said. “It appears you are allergic to yourself.”

I stared at him disbelievingly. “You must be kidding!”

“I know it sounds strange, but these allergy tests show you are allergic to your own bacteria.”

Hope blew away like the last autumn leaf. Allergic to myself. How could I escape that?

“We’ll make a special serum, using your saliva,” said the doctor, “and teach you how to inject it.”

And so began the next three years of giving myself shots. The headaches were not quite as severe, nor the rash quite as red—partial relief. The doctor did everything he could, prescribing medicines, creams and consultations. Still, the ever-present plague was agonizing, embarrassing.

So I followed my old, exhausted pattern and found yet another doctor. This time an outstanding allergist. More tests. More money. He decided I was allergic to a long list of foods, and put me on a diet. For a year I existed on nothing but peas, potatoes, carrots, lettuce and lean meat. My weight plummeted to 102 pounds.

“You’re wasting away, Mama,” said my son one morning as I packed my lunch of canned peas. He was right. Something dreadful was happening to me. And despite it all the daily headaches persisted, and the humiliating rash and acne were splashed across my face as big and red as ever.

This is no way to live, I thought dismally as I draped a scarf across my head and left for work.

Then one Sunday as I struggled to teach my Sunday school class, I heard myself saying, “God is the answer.” I paused, the echo of my words thundering in my head. As the class continued, the words burrowed inside me like a splinter.

At home after church I lay on the sofa with a warm cloth across my forehead. I gazed out the windows at the silent woods across the road. The words I had spoken that morning nudged at me.

I am a Christian, I thought. I tell other people God is the answer, that they can find wholeness through him. Yet I’ve been a prisoner of this condition for nearly 16 years.

Suddenly the familiar old story of the woman in Mark 5:25-34 focused in my mind. The woman who touched the hem of Jesus’ robe and was healed. I was so much like her. I too had suffered a condition for many years, gone to countless physicians, spent nearly all I had and was not better, but worse.

The difference was the woman in Mark had finally gone to Jesus with faith—and was healed.

Did such healings still happen today? I wondered. If so, could healing really happen to me? There on the sofa, the idea of real healing from God spun in my head. It almost seemed too ancient to be real. If only I could be sure.

The weeks passed and winter melted away. The incredible idea of healing lingered in my mind like a held-over Christmas present. I toyed with the ribbons, afraid to open it, afraid it might turn out to be empty…but strangely unable to turn away.

Then one Sunday something happened. I lay in bed trying to find diversion from my headache by watching television. On the screen stood a beautiful young woman—Cheryl Prewitt, Miss America 1980.

“God healed me,” she said. “I prepared myself to be healed, and God healed me.”

My heart began to pound with a strange excitement. She was speaking to me! No, God was speaking to me! He did still heal people today.

“Come quick!” I called to my husband and boys. As they hurried to the bedroom I pointed to the TV, where the radiant young woman still spoke. Tears poured down my face. “If God can heal her, then he can heal me,” I said.

Finally, after 16 desperate years of trying everything else, I was ready. Again I relived that biblical story in my mind. What was it Jesus had said to that woman after she had brushed her fingertips across his robe? “Your faith has made you whole.” And what had Cheryl Prewitt said? “I prepared myself to be healed.”

Faith, there was the key. There was what had been missing before. My faith had grown flabby, like out-of-shape muscles. I knew intellectually that God is powerful and can heal. But somehow I had to get that knowledge from my mind down into my heart. I had to believe it as absolutely as I believed the sun would rise tomorrow.

On May 1, I began to prepare myself for healing like an athlete training for the Olympics. I sat down in the kitchen rocker with a pad of paper and my Bible. I flipped to the concordance in the back—to the heading of “healing, health and faith.”

I picked out verses, then looked them up, writing each one down word for word. It took a couple of days, but I finally compiled a list of 36 Scriptures—sort of a training manual for my faith.

The next day I tucked the papers into my purse. While driving to work I pulled them out and laid them on the seat. At the first stoplight I focused on Psalm 103:2-3. “Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits…Who healeth all thy diseases,” I whispered.

I closed my eyes, saying it over and over, letting it sink down inside me. At a stop sign my eyes fell on another from Jeremiah: Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed…. ” I said it over and over.

All day I kept it up—before getting out of the car, walking along the school corridors, sitting in the playground at recess. Not a spare moment was lost; by the end of the schoolday my Scripture papers were dog-eared from wear.

In the weeks that followed this became my constant routine. The papers were as inseparable from me as my shadow. And by some inexplicable process the 36 Scriptures were slowly sinking into the core of my being with roots of belief.

I was actually beginning to believe—really believe—that I could be healed. I could almost feel my faith stretching and rippling with new strength.

I circled July 12 on the kitchen calendar. “Lord, this is the day I’m asking for complete healing,” I said.

Then I added another exercise. I began to visualize my complexion as pink and clear as a newborn baby’s, and my sinus passages free and well. I imprinted it on my mind day and night. This exercise became rather a strenuous one, because the mirror was such a contrast from my image.

The mirror is wrong, I told myself. Soon it will reflect my inner image.

Late that spring I hurried past a mirror at school. Suddenly I stopped, backed up and peered into it. I ran my fingers across my face. Was it my imagination or did the fiery-red rash seem a bit faded? And my headache. Didn’t it seem better? “Oh, thank you, Lord!” I cried. “You are healing me.”

July 12 dawned warm and shiny through the bedroom window. I tiptoed to the bathroom mirror, took a deep breath and looked into it. The rash still lingered on the lower part of my face, and a faint sinus headache tugged behind my eyes.

I will not give up, I thought. With a sudden burst of faith I said, “Well, Lord, this is the day! I know it will happen.”

When the sun set in an orange glow I went to a mirror again. Again I stared at my reflection, tears sparkling on my face. A face completely smooth and clear! It was the face I had imagined. The headache of the morning had drifted away as well. God and faith had made me whole.

For almost a year now I have not experienced a single headache, and my skin remains clear. I’ve gotten rid of all the old ointments, medicines, allergy shots and diets. The only thing I’ve kept are my precious dog-eared papers—those powerful Scripture exercises that brought my faith to life.

For there’s one thing I’ve learned: Though it’s important to keep physical muscles well-toned, it’s even more important to keep “faith muscles” strong. For they are the ones that churn the spiritual energy, that move the mountains in our lives. Even a mountain like mine, which had towered over me for 16 years.

A few weeks ago at a meeting a stranger tapped my shoulder. “Your complexion is so beautiful,” she said.

“Oh, thank you,” I said, breaking into an unusually big smile. A smile, I’m sure, no one there really understood…except me and God.

Here are the 36 scriptures Marilyn used

Proverbs 4:20-22    Mark 1:34    John 10:10      James 5:15

Romans 10:17   Mark 5:34      III John 2        I Peter 2:24

Matthew 7:7,11     Mark 10:52     Hebrews 13:8   Psalm 42:11

Matthew 8:7, 13, 17   Mark 9:23    Malachi 4:2     Psalm 6:2

Matthew 9:29, 35     Mark 11:22-24   Matthew 4:23, 24    Psalm 41:4

Matthew 14:14   Luke 6:19   Psalm 30:2    Psalm 103:2, 3

Matthew 15:30 John 14:13, 14   Psalm 91:9, 10   Isaiah 53:4, 5

Matthew 17:20, 21   Acts 10:38   Proverbs 3:7, 8   Jeremiah 17:14 I

Matthew 19:2    Galatians 3:13   Exodus 15:26     John 4:4

https://www.guideposts.org/better-living/health-and-wellness/healing/heal-me-o-lord

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Living a Life of Fire and Faith quotes

I am led today to share some quotes from an evangelist of our time. Recently I have been interceding using the word “fire”. Today I suddenly thought of this evangelist’s autobiography, but I forgot its title. After I searched the internet I found that it’s aptly called, “Living a Life of Fire: An Autobiography” by Reinhard Bonnke. Indeed, it’s a time to call down supernatural fire. Many are suffering, oppressed, persecuted and lost. Some are forever lost without Jesus. Is this a time to build our own bigger and more luxurious houses with fancier ceilings? Good reminder from the old prophet Haggai. What is your call? That is the crux of the matter.

“It is said that resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for your enemy to die. There is no room for such a waste of energy in the service of God.”

“You have faith stories, too. No matter how small, remember them, recite them, count them, and celebrate them. They build your faith for what is coming next in your life.”

“When people decide not to take risks, this is why. They fear they might suffer unexpected consequences. And, as my ulcers and depression proved, the risk is real. But is that reason to hang onto the past? To cling to mediocrity? No. Doing that is the first step along the path of seeing a living faith become a dead one. The old place, the old building, the old method, the old success, is comforting. The new step is frightening. We must place our trust completely in God to move beyond these comfort zones in life.”

“Divine healings were signs and wonders to confirm the preaching of the gospel. He took the sick man by the hand and commanded that”

“When you pull up roots in order to fulfill a divine destiny, there is not a sense of pain or loss. Rather, there is a great expectation for things to come.”

“The need is not the call. This piece of wisdom has saved the lives of many a missionary, especially in Africa, where the needs are so great that they can pull you to pieces. A missionary can put out so many fires trying to meet needs around him that he suffers burnout. I have known missionary friends who said, “I hear the cry of lost souls calling me into the mission field.” These workers are headed for the missionary bone yard. They have responded to the call of the need rather than the call of God. We must go where God sends us, speak what He gives us to speak, hear His voice and obey it – this is our best protection from burnout. It will also guide us to the very best strategy for accomplishing His mission. For everything a man does to follow the call of God, there are ten things he does not do. We cannot do everything. We must focus on the call and not simply the needs.”

Faith: The Link with God’s Power by Reinhard Bonnke

“We do not first acquire the faith that we bring to Scripture. Scripture encourages faith. “Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God” (Romans 10:17).”

“Commitment Now, nobody can have unity on his or her own. You cannot be married on your own. There is no such thing as an independent believer. You cannot have unity by belonging nowhere.”

“Jesus did not call them—or you and me—to ditch their smiles and to wear sackcloth. His mission was not to turn people into “stick-in-the-muds.” Jesus Himself was not very conventional! The disciples caught His infectious spirit, one that would challenge the stuffy establishment. He showed them new things, especially faith and love, by which, they would conquer the world.”

“God the Deliverer The primary truth about God is that He is the Deliverer, the Emancipator, and the Savior. He is God only to the free. Faith is a venture that turns life into an adventure.”

“The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of unity. He is the bonding element. This bonding is a wonderful effect of faith in Christ. It is creative. It brings about a new kind of oneness not even known in the closest of earthly families.”

“Faith…needs to be matched with action. Belief is not just brain cells in motion. It demands a response. Do we do what we believe? If we believe in a seed, we plant it.”

The following write-up is quoted from : http://www.cfan.org.sg/about-reinhard-bonnke.html

Evangelist Reinhard Bonnke is principally known for his Great Gospel Crusades throughout the Continent of Africa. The son of a pastor, Reinhard gave his life to the Lord at age nine, and heard the call to the African mission field before he was even a teenager. After attending Bible College in Wales, and his ordination in Germany he pastored a church and then went on to start missionary work in Africa. It was there, in the small mountain kingdom of Lesotho, that God placed upon his heart the vision of ‘the continent of Africa, being washed in the precious Blood of Jesus’ — an entire continent, from Cape Town to Cairo and from Dakar to Djibouti that needed to be reached and to hear the proclamation of the signs-following Gospel.

He began holding meetings in a tent that accommodated just 800 people, but, as attendance steadily increased, larger and larger tents had to be purchased, until finally, in 1984, he commissioned the construction of the world’s largest mobile structure — a tent capable of seating 34,000 people! Soon, attendance at his meetings even exceeded the capacity of this huge structure, and he began open-air Gospel Campaigns with an initial gathering of over 150,000 people per service! Since then, he has conducted city-wide meetings across the continent with as many as 1,600,000 people attending a single meeting using towering sound systems that can be heard for miles.
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It has now been some thirty-five years since Reinhard Bonnke founded the international ministry of Christ for all Nations (CfaN), which currently has offices in the United States, Canada, Germany, United Kingdom, Nigeria, South Africa, Singapore, Australia, and Hong Kong.

Since the start of the new millennium, through a host of major events in Africa and other parts of the world, the ministry has recorded 55 million documented decisions for Jesus Christ.

As part of the discipleship-training program, 185 million copies of CfaN follow-up literature have been published in 103 languages and printed in 55 countries. Millions of books have been printed and freely ‘seeded’ in nations around the world. All this is in addition to the ‘Reinhard Bonnke School of Fire,’ an online, self-study course, aimed at inspiring others to Holy Spirit Evangelism and leading to either a certificate or university credits.

Reinhard Bonnke is also recognized for hosting ‘Fire Conferences’ in many different countries of the world, events that are aimed at equipping church leaders and workers for evangelism; for distributing over 95,500,000 copies of Minus to Plus, a profound salvation message, to homes around the world; and for seeking every opportunity to reach and to save the lost.

More recently, Bonnke has spent several years developing the ‘Full Flame Film Series,’ a series of eight inspirational films aimed at inspiring and challenging the church to Holy Spirit evangelism.

Evangelist Bonnke is married to Anni, father to Kai-Uwe, Gabrielle, and Susie, and grandfather to eight grandchildren.

Healed experience: what promotes healing in us

One major obstacle to a person receiving healing is the physical symptom. This blogger goes through the same issue from time to time. Symptoms cause suffering and fear: the most common question is “what shall we do when we see the symptoms and they seem to be getting worse (bigger, more discharges, more pain, more regular recurrences, more paralyzing stiffness, more impeaching normal functioning etc.).?”

The common fear is “are these symptoms life threatening?” The common doubt is “may be I have not yet been healed or am not being healed as the word of God has promised?”

I would share from my own experience and shall not presume anything for anyone.

The overall victory key is:  I would encourage everyone at all times to seek God and stay focused on Jesus Christ who is dwelling in every believer. Let the Holy Spirit and the Word of God continue to work the good work that God has started in each of us through Jesus Christ in us.

This is what I do when the symptoms appear:

  1. Stay focused on my position in Christ. This is the only victory position. Reaffirm and proclaim all the verses giving me assurance of this position.
  2. Pray. Use the name and authority of Jesus to command the symptoms, just as Jesus says, to speak to the mountain (in this case, the symptoms) to go and cast into the sea. Command the body to be restored to its original created design and function.
  3. Take the Holy Communion when led by the Holy Spirit, proclaiming and partaking the blood and the body of Jesus.
  4. Listen to the Bible, at all times, everywhere, using a handy and mobile speaker player of MP3. In times when I am led by the Holy Spirit, I listen to the whole Bible, many times.
  5. Read and copy the Bible verses as led by the Holy Spirit.
  6. Continue living a joyous life in the Spirit, praying in the Spirit, singing in the Spirit, worshiping and praising God in the Spirit.
  7. Fasting and praying. Do the Esther fast (three days without food or liquid) when led by the Holy Spirit. Do other fasts: like for seven (up to 40) days, taking one main meal a day or two light meals a day or just liquid fast for three days. The mode and length of time depends on how the Holy Spirit leads me.

When I do these, I am no longer limited in the physical realm where the apparent symptoms are. My spirit joins to the Lord and becomes one spirit with the Lord. (1 Corinthians 6:17) I cannot fight the symptoms in the physical. I can fight them in the spiritual. Joining to the Lord Jesus’ Spirit in my spirit is the way to victory.

One very powerful verse I rely very much on is from Galatians 2:20: I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

Why is this verse powerful? It declares first, Jesus Christ lives in me. It means by faith I can live His victorious sickness free and symptoms free life. When I so declare, I can see the effect on my physical being.

How do I use this verse? I just proclaim it by faith and believe without doubt. When I proclaim God’s words by faith the words truly become life and spirit to me. (John 6:63)

Please do not make the above list as a format or ritual. As I have said in the beginning, I share only my own personal experience in dealing with symptoms.

I have discovered that by using the mighty name of Jesus and His authority therein, I should not be focusing and magnifying the evil works of the enemy. There is no need to keep binding and casting out the demons. If you are led by the Holy Spirit to bind and cast out the spirit of fear, fine, just do it immediately. Use the name of Jesus Christ to bind and command it to go.

You must then immediately switch back to focus on your position in Christ and the fact that Christ is in you and He is the mighty God! God does not need to keep telling the devil to go. When you let God arise in you, the devil will flee. The manifestation of Jesus Christ in you destroys the works of the devil. (1 John 3:8)

What I am doing in the above seven steps keep me focus on God (Jesus Christ) in me and let God arise in me and God’s enemy be scattered even without my binding and casting out all the time.

Living an abundant life means living the constant presence of God in us. It is possible and practical. I have been living this transformed life for a number of years.

I pray that my brief sharing will help many to re-focus on God’s victory and no longer waste their lives in magnifying the devil and his works.

God is light. In Him there is no darkness. If you are still in darkness it means you have not come into God’s presence and stay in Him. Reading 1 John repeatedly will put you into the right spiritual realm with God.

the Word of God above all
the Word of God above all